Week 8

Well, I made it this far...I think! I still get real nervous wondering if things are still developing in there or if I will be going to my ob appt next week to find no heartbeat and the baby stopped developing a week earlier. That is exactly what happened last time and it's hard not to think about that. I'm still having symptoms so I guess that is a good sign. This week will be a busy one with Christmas so hopefully that will keep my mind off things. I wish I could have my appt BEFORE Christmas so I could possibly make an announcement over the holidays. My inlaws come in from Oklahoma next Monday(29th) and that is the same day as my ob appt so we are planning to tell them next week as long as everything looks ok. I'm praying that it will be.

Fetal Development
Your baby has a face! Your baby's features are becoming more obvious, as his lips, tongue and nostrils, as well as the buds for 20 baby teeth are already present. The back muscles are growing along the spinal column, and his or her reproductive organs have started to form and soon will become either testes or ovaries. The arms and legs are growing and elbows and knees appear as well. The fingers and toes are starting to show but are still webbed. Your baby is about 8 - 11 mm or 0.31 - 0.43 inches in length.

The process of ossification (hardening of the bones) begins as the bones of the fingers and toes have already reached the first joint. Your baby is already getting smarter as his brain continues to develop and grow. Your baby is starting to show signs of reflex activity - an automatic response to certain types of stimuli Connecting you and your baby, the umbilical cord with all its blood vessels, is starting to function. In fact, what will be your baby's intestine is forming in the umbilical cord as well. An ultrasound done this week would show your baby's fluttering heart and reflex movements.

My Symptoms
- Fatigue
- Upset Stomach
- Shortness of Breath for some reason

Week 7

Well, another week down! This past week I've been feeling pretty crappy. My evenings are filled with being lazy on the couch. I get pretty nauseous in the evening and no energy to do anything which sucks since Christmas is so close and I really need to get my last minute stuff done. Oh well...it's better for me AND the baby if I take it easy and relax. Nothing to exciting going on this week pregnancy wise...just my shots on Tuesday and Friday. Next week they will do another blood draw to check my progesterone again. I really hope it goes up way more than it has.

Fetal Development
This week your baby is undergoing some extraordinary changes and developments. The head, heart, spinal cord, and some of the larger blood vessels begin to form. As these blood vessels form, the heart begins to pump fluid through them, and your baby's first red blood cells are created. Your baby is about 7 - 9 mm or 0.27 - 0.35 inches in length, (approximately the size of a grain of rice), and weighs about 1/30 of an ounce - less than a breath mint

Your baby's brain, bladder, tongue and esophagus are all developing and transforming, while his eyes are moving to the front of the face and his tiny eyelids are forming. The bones of his tiny limbs have started to form and all of your baby's major organs - heart, intestines, kidneys, liver, lungs and pancreas -- are forming and growing. In fact, your baby actually goes through 3 sets of kidneys during development with this week's development, being the second set.

Both the hand plates and the genital tubercle are present this week, but you can't tell whether it's a boy or a girl by sight at this point. Nasal pits are also forming. In your womb, your baby has already become active swimming around inside the amniotic sac and kicking. However, as he's much too small and well-cushioned by the uterus and the new amniotic fluid you won't be able to feel him yet. But don't worry. In a few months you'll be able to feel him constantly.

My Symptoms
- Nauseous in the afternoon/evening hours
- Still very tired (no energy)
- Gas...woohoo!!
- Heartburn on and off

Success...

We went for our first u/s appt yesterday. I was a ball of nerves all day just waiting for 12:45 to hit on the clock. I met Erik at the u/s place and Erik did a whole pep talk before we went in telling me how we need to stay positive and whatever happens happens...it is beyond our control and we will get through it no matter what the outcome is. He is too sweet...he did help calm my nerves a bit. We got called back right away and the u/s tech was very nice. She said, "I'm going to take some boring pictures first and then we will take a look at the baby" As she was moving the u/s wand around I could see the gestational sac but nothing in it so of course I was flipping out in my head. Then she said "Ok, let's look at the baby." Once she focused on the sac I saw the little blob along with the heart beat flickering away. I immediately looked at Erik and grabbed his hand. I was so happy to see something in the sac. She took some measurements and the heartbeat was measuring 118bpm. She said the heartbeat probably just started so that rate was great. She also said that I was measuring a day ahead and everything looked perfect. After I got cleaned up the tech told me to wait in the room and they were going to review the u/s pics and talk to my doctor. About 10 minutes later she came back and said "Your doctor says everything looks wonderful and she will see you at your first ob appt." OMG, what a relief!!! I've been waiting for this appt ever since I got my BFP a couple weeks ago. I can finally breathe a little. I also got a call back about my progesterone levels. They are now at 16.7...up from 15.7 two weeks ago. Doctor says that it is good but still wants me to get the weekly progesterone shots. I was hoping for a much higher number but if they say it was good and it wasn't decreasing then I am going to TRY and relax about it. Below is a picture of our little baby...

Week 6

Well today I am 6 weeks pregnant and feeling pretty good overall. I will have blood work done tomorrow to check on my betas and progesterone and I am a nervous wreck!!! PLEASE God, let this be a sticky baby! In addition to my blood work tomorrow, I will be having an u/s on Wed to check the viability of this pregnancy. I've been praying hard every night since I got my BFP that everything will be ok. I'm really hoping to see a healthy heartbeat too! Work is so busy this week so that is helping to keep my mind off things and it makes the days go faster. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers for the next couple days that I will receive GOOD NEWS! Thank you so much.

Fetal Development
This is another busy week for your baby. Your baby now has a head and trunk. A groove (known as the laryngotracheal groove) forms and will become the larynx or voice box while the beginnings of the mouth and digestive system are evident as well. The inner ear and blood circulation are also apparent and your baby is beginning to develop facial features as indentations form that will become the eyes, ears and mouth. Your baby's brain is developing and activity can actually be monitored on an electroencephalogram (EEG). Also developing are the limb buds that will develop into the arms and legs. Your baby's heartbeat is visible on ultrasound as the heart is bulging from the body. The length of your baby is about 4 - 6 mm or 0.15 - 0.24 inches.

My Symptoms
- Dizzy/Lightheaded
- Extreme Fatigue
- Sleepless Nights (I can NOT sleep well at all anymore...I think it's because I have so much on my mind)
- Upset Stomach (not too bad though)

Week 5

Well today is week 5 of this pregnancy and so far so good...I think. My doctor is concerned with my progesterone level AGAIN (just like last time) so I am getting 2 injections twice a week plus taking vaginal suppositories every night before bed. I won't be getting any more blood work done until next week so...I wait! I'm also to get an early u/s done next week to check the viability of the pregnancy. I'm praying hard every day that this is a sticky baby but I'm going crazy waiting to know if it's all ok.

Fetal Development in Week 5
You won't believe the changes that your baby has already gone through in such a short time. Your baby's heart is 3/4 of the way formed and will begin beating this week! Also developing are the brain, cardiovascular and nervous systems and the reproductive and other major systems. Early this week your baby becomes pear-shaped. The rounded end will become the head while the pointed end will become your baby's spine. Your baby is now known as an embryo and is about 1.5 - 2.5 mm or 0.05 - 0.09 inches in length.

My Symptoms:
- Very fatigued!! I'm taking a 1-2 hour nap every day to be able to function properly.
- Some breast tenderness
- Queasiness on and off (mostly in the evening)
- Bloated!! This just started today.

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GO CAPS!!!

Some friends and I made a trip down to Washington DC this past Friday for a Capitals/Devils hockey game. It was a very fun trip and Brad had everyone laughing the whole way home with his singing and movie quoting. Can't wait to go again. Here are a couple pictures from the trip!

I'm a selling fool...

Last night was our monthly lia sophia meeting. I absolutely LOVE going to these meetings because they are so much fun and the girls in our unit are the best. I was even more excited to go this month since I was the top seller last month and would be receiving special recognition for it.

I've been a lia sophia advisor for over 14 months now and I never thought the day would come that I would be named "top seller". I never gave up though...in those 14 months I attended every single monthly meeting, every single rally and every single special event lia sophia had to offer. I would attend the monthly meeting and watch all the other girls win prizes for being top seller or having the most shows in one month wondering if my day would ever come. Countless hours were spent researching information on how to get my business moving and to start selling like a pro. I'm happy to say that all that hard work paid off because now I am on a roll and beating the other girls in our unit by a landslide. I'm already in first place for top seller again this month. The excitement on my face when being announced "top seller for the month of Oct" last night was a wonderful feeling that I will never forget. I couldn't believe that I was the one receiving the lia sophia gift basket full of supplies, jewelry and more for being #1. I felt like I just won the miss America pageant as I stood there with all the prizes in my hands. Let's not forget all the commission I made last month and this month too. I can definitely say that lia sophia is paying for all of the Christmas gifts this year with plenty leftover for other things.

I'm so glad I decided to sign up with lia sophia 14 months ago!! The friends I've made, the money I've made, the prizes that I've won, the jewelry that I get (most of it FREE), the confidence that I've gained in myself, the happiness that I have....I could go on and on! I LOVE lia sophia!!!!!

Ghosts and Goblins and Monsters Oh My!!

The 1st annual "Fright Night" at my house is officially over but what an AWESOME night it was! Keep in mind this is our first one so we already have plans on making this bigger and better next year. The evening started around 4pm when the decorating begun. About 5 minutes into the decorating my neighbor (the one from across the street that does her own little production) came over and asked "What are you guys doing? What is that?" Mind you, I NEVER met this woman in person but she felt inclined to come over and see what we were doing. HA! Love it! I'm sure she will try to outdo us next year. Anyway, we continue getting ready and people are already driving by the house real slow, breaking their necks to see what we are doing. The excitement started to build up at this point. 6pm hits and we are ready to go. I wish that is was DARK at 6 but we had to wait another 30 minutes for that to happen. The first couple trick-or-treaters did not get the full effect since it was not dark and the fog machine, strobe lights, and animated props were not visible at that time. It didn't take long and it got dark and people were coming from all over the place to check it out. Jen was a zombie laying in the graveyard to start the haunted house experience for the kids...they would FREAK out when Jen started to "come alive" (mostly because they did not see her lying there). As they were freaked out by Jen and watching what she was doing...I quickly jumped out from a near by bush scaring the CRAP out of them. A lot of the kids turned around and ran away screaming at that point and they didn't even get up into the porch. The brave ones that did keep going walked up onto the porch holding hands afraid to see what was next. The porch was covered in fog from the fog machine but they kept going only to be greeted by Dr. Demented and Leatherface (from texaschainsaw massacre) in the "Chop Shop" cutting up body parts. Dr. Demented would then reward them for making it through the house by giving them gummy body parts to eat. Some kids were too scared to get their treat and ran out of the porch to safety. However, the kids were not safe quite yet...Brad (another zombie) would be hiding in a bush right outside the porch sending them running down my driveway in fear! I remember one little girl got pretty scared (not in a bad way...she wasn't crying or anything) and she curled up in a ball on the front porch. She did make it through the rest of the house but she laughed about it when it was all over.

We had parents clapping at our performance and people were taking all kinds of pictures. Jen and I even got hit with a bag full of candy from a kid who got a little too scared. The kids were talking all about it walking down the street to the next house so I know we set ourselves up for next year. Below are some pictures from the night. These pictures do NOT do it justice though...I really wish I had a video camera so you could really see how it was all put together and hear all the screams we got that night.

Dr. Demented walking up and down the sidewalk giving a little taste of whats to come.

It's almost 6 o'clock!!

Leatherface is all ready to chop up some body parts!

The Chop Shop is open for business.

What can we get you?

Our latest victim!

The Chop Shop owners!

Oh no...the zombie is coming alive...

Brad waiting for his next victim!

Our friendly witches who were our guides for the evening...letting kids know where to go and giving out candy to those too scared to go through the house.

The whole crew!

It's all over...time to eat!!!

Brains and eyeballs (spaghetti and olives)

The graveyard brownies.

Witch hat cookies

Our bloody punch

Another Cycle Bites the Dust

Right now I'm sitting here in tears wondering what I'm doing wrong. My lovely AF cramps started yesterday just like they do a couple days before she arrives every cycle. I should expect to be blessed with her presence this weekend.

Life takes you on unexpected journeys and I never thought that trying to get pregnant was going to be one of them. Every day I see tons of people walking around with all their children laughing and having a good time. I also see tons of people that really shouldn't have children but are blessed with 6 or more. Where do I fit in? When will it be my turn? Why does this have to be so difficult? What's wrong with me? These are the questions that constantly run through my mind every second of every day. It really is starting to consume my life and I hate it!

On the other side I feel guilt...guilt for even "complaining" about this. I know I'm not alone in this and there are many others out there that can't have children or go through years of fertility treatments. Every day I think of all the women out there struggling and it makes me upset and MAD. Mad because I don't understand why God makes it so difficult for these wonderful couples out there. I guess he has a plan for all of us but a lot of times I wonder what he's thinking.

I continue to hold on to my faith and trust that God DOES have a plan for me and it will happen some day. It's just so hard to hold on to that faith when it continuously lets us down. Oh well...on to the next cycle.

B-E-A-R-S BEARS BEARS BEARS....WOOOOOOO!

Ah yes, the Hershey Bears season officially started a couple weeks ago however the first HOME game was this past Saturday. What a great way to celebrate the home opener with a 7-1 victory! Woohoo!!! Go Bears!!! We have an unbelievable amount of talent on the team this year and they are already predicting that we will win the calder cup! Whoa...I hope that prediction didn't jinx us but we are definitely the team to beat this year. Below are a couple shots I took at the games this weekend. This is my favorite time of year...

Fright Night

Last night a group of us went to Jason's Woods for a "scary" evening on a haunted hayride. We arrive at 7pm which we thought was early enough to not wait in line but we were so wrong with that. The line was huge for tickets however we were provided with excellent entertainment from "Chelsea and Cameron" which made the wait seem quick...lol! There was a group that performed Michael Jackson's "Thriller" which was actually pretty cool. Good classic tune to serenade the evenings events.

I don't know what it is about Halloween that makes me feel like I'm 10 years old again but I just enjoy everything about it. The scary movies, the candy, the carved pumpkins, the costumes, the parades...everything! I do think that my excitement for this holiday has rubbed off on my husband though. This year we are doing a haunted house for the trick-or-treaters and Erik is just in his glory figuring out what he is going to be and finding all his "props" for this 2 hour event. I even have a group of friends coming over to participate in this special night of terror. This will either scare the kids away and we will become the "freaks" of the neighborhood or this will have the kids flocking over to see it and we will become the "cool people" of the neighborhood...I'm hoping for #2. My neighbor across the street thinks she is "cool" because she dresses up and puts on a strobe light while passing out hot chocolate to all the adults...well I can't wait to see her mouth drop when she sees that I've become the "cool" one of the block. She will not be able to "outdo" me this year...the kids will not be skipping my house to run across the street to stand in her garage with a strobe light. How scary! I hope she has gallons of hot chocolate leftover...LOL! Ok, sorry...I got a little carried away there. That's the competitiveness in me. Anyway, it will be a great night nonetheless. I will be sure to post pics.

Awesome Show

Well last night proved that women are not putting a stop on shopping for themselves. Wow...every woman that attended the lia sophia show I did last night bought TONS of stuff!! I'm sure they couldn't pass up the wonderful customer save plan and monthly special but I wasn't too sure how the sales were going to be with the big economy meltdown. I asked each guest if they were buying Christmas gifts and all of them said, "nope, this is for me!" How awesome! I think people know that they still need to be happy and spending a little money on themselves from time to time isn't going to put them into a deep hole. So far I made over $300 in commission from the show and the hostess still has lots of outside orders coming in. It looks like my lia sophia shows are going to pay for Christmas gifts again this year.

I also changed up my presentation a little and it worked out wonderfully. I don't know what got into me last night but I felt so confident standing up there talking and I just had so much fun! I got a couple more bookings too and things seem to be turning around for me in this business.

I can't say enough that starting with lia sophia was the best decision I ever made. I've met so many awesome people, made good money, conquered my fear of talking in front of people, and gave me the confidence in myself that I never thought existed.

Tis the Season....

It's finally here...October officially started about 15 hours ago and I am excited!!! Once October 1st is here, I can say the holiday season is here...at least in my world. Halloween is my favorite holiday (along with Christmas) so out come the pumpkins, the ghosts, the witches...everything spooky and scary! I have big plans for Halloween this year so I'm looking forward to "Fright Night" at my house. Oh I love this time of year....

My schedule is getting so booked with lia sophia parties which makes me soooooo happy!! This is the perfect time to host a show. On average my hostesses receive $300-$400 in FREE jewelry PLUS additional discounts that can't be beat. Wouldn't it be nice to get some of your Christmas shopping done and not have to pay a cent for it?!?!? The customer specials are fantastic too so your guests will be getting an awesome deal by shopping from their seat..not their feet. My parties are always filled with laughter, fun and excitement. The ladies just can't get enough of the jewelry and spend hours trying everything on. It is also a good time to get your lia sophia "wish list" together to give to your husband/significant other. Take the guess work out for your men and tell them exactly what you want for Christmas this year. Our new line is absolutely stunning and people just can't stop talking about it. I get a compliment every single day from someone about the jewelry I'm wearing (I only wear lia sophia) and it makes me feel so good and pretty. I feel confident when I put on that lia sophia piece everyday...makes me feel like I belong on 5th Ave in New York City. So, why not host a show this holiday season? Invite some friends over for a good time and reap all the benefits lia sophia has to offer you as a hostess. Who wouldn't want all this?

Contact me today to schedule your show. I promise...it will be FUN!

No Luck This Time

Well AF showed her ugly face yesterday morning...so on to the next cycle. I was so bummed because we timed everything perfectly and I actually had a NORMAL cycle for once instead of my 40-50 day cycles. A normal cycle for me doesn't happen too often so I really thought we had a good chance this time. Oh well...

I'm looking forward to the Apple Festival tomorrow with some friends. This is one of my favorite things to do every year. It really gets me in the mood for Fall and the holiday season. I can't wait to get my pumpkin funnel cake and buy some apple dumplings for dessert that evening. YUM!!!!!

Who am I?

:::Warning::: this is going to be a negative post filled with lots of whining.

Do you ever sit there and wonder who you are and what you are doing with your life? This is a question that I ask myself everyday. As I sit here typing this, I struggle to understand the meaning of life. I thought life was to be so great and filled with tons of happiness. I sit at work crying on a daily basis wondering if this is what I was meant to do in life? Am I meant to work for my parents the rest of my life? Am I meant to make them happy so the business doesn't suffer? Why do I feel so guilty for having thoughts of leaving this job? I deserve to be happy too right? The past 6 years of my life have not been the greatest for me (other than getting married to the most wonderful person ever). I fail to believe that I am better than this and that I can do better in my career. I fail to get the courage to do something about it. Do you realize how much your job can effect everything else in your life? The depression that I get from this job has turned me into a zombie...yes, a zombie! Most of the time I walk around ignoring everything around me because I'm so lost, so confused about where I'm going. I can't seem to get a grip on things anymore and the CONSTANT pressure is going to cause me to blow! I'm afraid that I will become so depressed that I will have no way out. Why is this happening to me????? I used to be so cool, so calm, so collected.

Maybe I had that miscarriage for a reason...maybe it was a sign that I would have been a bad mother...maybe it was a sign that I'm so screwed up that motherhood is never going to happen for me....or maybe it was a sign that I need to continue helping my parents and work here the rest of my life! Ahhhhh, I'm so angry!!! I'm so sad!!! I'm so confused!!! I'm so miserable!!! God, please give me some direction. Please help me find a reason for life. Please help me find who I am. I can't keep living like this.

I'm sorry to all my family and friends. I'm sorry that I can't be a wonderful friend, daughter, wife, niece, employee, etc. I'm sorry!!! I'm trying SOOOO hard to put these issues aside so I can be a wonderful person to all the people in my life. Please bare with me as I try to find myself and get back to that Lesli that everyone remembers.

3 Years Ago Today...

3 years ago today I was getting married to the most wonderful man in the world. Time sure is flying...it seems like yesterday we were in college dating. I can't believe all that has happened since Sept 17, 2005. We moved in to our first rental townhouse (this is the first time we lived together), getting our baby yorkie Del, buying our first home and experiencing that whole process, selling our first house, moving into the AWESOME house we have now, inlaws moving to Oklahoma, getting pregnant which shortly resulted in a miscarriage and now trying to start a family again. We have had our share of ups and downs with things (jobs, miscarriage, etc) but our love gets stronger each day. I can still remember talking to Erik for the very first time way back when we were 17 sitting in homeroom (in high school)....he was the sweetest guy ever and that hasn't changed one bit! I'm so grateful to have such a loving husband who loves me unconditionally and will do anything for me and I mean ANYTHING! My life would not be complete without him and I love him more each second of each day. Happy Anniversary Erik!!!

The 2WW begins...I think?

Well I entered my temps in this morning and FF is giving me crosshairs that I ovulated? I don't think I did yet but I'll go with it for now. It could always change in a couple days. So for now...let the insanity of the 2WW begin! These 2 weeks are always the worst...waiting...anaylizing every symptom...waiting some more then....finally its either the big let down or time to celebrate! Why can't we just know right away so it can save me the added stress??? I've actually been pretty good this cycle...nice and relaxed about it but like I said the 2WW is the hardest part and my attitude could change at any moment. Here's to hoping I can remain calm the next 2 weeks. I have a nice relaxing weekend to look forward to, so that's a plus! :)

Have a nice weekend everyone!

Fall Rally

This past weekend I attended lia sophia's fall rally up in Raystown, PA. What a FUN rally!!! I always enjoy going to all these functions. 7 of us from our local unit drove up together and got lost a couple times...LOL! Those GPS systems aren't always 100% reliable, but we made it after a couple turn arounds, a stop at an ancient gas station (you know, the ones with the pumps from like the 1950's...we didn't even know how to work them LOL) and a lovely stop at a bug/spider infested outhouse. EWW!!! Anyway, on our way up we had our monthly meeting where my manager would give out awards to those who made certain goals, etc. I was the top seller for our unit in July so she gave me the following: a $50 gift certificate to Red Lobster (YUM), a free piece of jewelry out of the catalog (my choice), 4 supplies (things we use in the business like order forms, invitaions, etc), and this awesome lia sophia water bottle. I was so excited to be recognized on this accomplishment! I just LOVE my manager and all of the girls in our unit...we have so much fun everytime we are together!

The rally itself was a blast! They fed us breakfast and lunch, had separate "breakout" sessions where we learned the tricks from the top sellers in the company. We also heard from the lady who has been working with lia sophia since 1981 and is a "star zone manager" (she has over 5,000 ladies underneath her that she makes commission off of)....let's just say that her paychecks are HUGE...she makes a couple million a year doing this! Unbelievable!!! She is such a sweetheart and so motivational. We were all given a free piece of jewelry out of the new catalog...I love the earrings I got! Raffle baskets lined up around the room giving us a chance to win them by purchasing raffle tickets. I unfortunately did not win one but a couple of the other girls in our unit did!! Lucky them!! It's so fun to see what everyone is wearing and how they wear them (everyone is wearing lia sophia of course). It was just a lovely day out with the ladies...something I definitely needed after all this crap going on with my full time job. I can't wait for the next rally in spring!

Here are a couple pictures from the day.

Good Mood Today

I don't know if its because of a shorter work week or because the new 90210 season premiere is on tonight but I am in a good mood today! I had a great weekend and my most memorable moment of it would be hanging out at Angela's with our husbands. What a great night and the "cavies" had a fun time as well. "My Heart Will Go On" performance will be in my memory forever. Erik and Brad should go on tour with that one. LOL!

For some reason I have a better outlook on life today...like something is going to change for the better in the near future. I have a lia sophia rally to go to on Saturday and I can not wait! These events are sooooooo motivational to me and it couldn't be happening at a better time. I hope it gives me the kick start I need to making this a more full time career. Considering I had 2 shows that paid for our entire trip to the Outer Banks, I KNOW that this business can make me a lot of money if I put more time into it.

Fall is my favorite time of year and I have a lot to look forward to coming up! Lia sophia events, the annual Apple Festival, Hershey Bears Hockey starting up, small weekend trips with friends, turning my house into a haunted house for halloween, Christmas and more is what I'm thinking about to get me through this tough time in my life. I know things will change and I have a positive outlook on it all. Of course I could not go through all this without the great support of my friends. I love all of you and thank you for helping me every step of the way.

That's a BFN Folks...

So my cramps are very intense this morning, my temperature is continuing to drop and I'm getting BFNs on the HPTs. AHHHHHH...the dreaded AF should be here by tomorrow! I've been so extremely depressed about my job and I mean EXTREMELY depressed that this BFN just tops off my week! I think I'm going to take some time to myself for awhile so you may not see me around online much. I seriously need to find myself or something. I need to get inspired or just snap out of this terrible funk that I am in.

Let's Try This Again...

Ok, so Erik and I are officially TTC again. Honestly...I'm not really looking forward to all this again. I mean I definitely want to be pregnant but all the emotions that go along with TTC I don't want to deal with it. I am so impatient and I can't stand this waiting game. I'm in the dreaded 2ww right now and I already POAS this morning when I know that its too early. AHHH...I hate that I torture myself. Why can't we know right away instead of waiting 2 weeks? I am analizing every symptom wondering if its pregnant related, avoiding certain foods (just in case), and the lack of concentration at work is making the days go by even slower. This drives me insane. I keep thinking to myself that I would be 21 weeks this week and would know if I was having a boy or girl. Ugh, why am I dwelling on the past? I really need to move past this and look forward to the future baby we will have...soon, but its so hard! Everyone around me is either finding out they are pregnant or about ready to give birth. I'm starting to get baby shower invitations and all I can think about is wishing that I was having one soon. Anyway, I just wanted to vent a little...I feel a little better, thanks! It doesn't help that I have long irregular cycles either.

Back to Work....

After a much needed vacation for Erik and I, we are back to real life now! Booooo! We had an awesome time in the OBX last week, it was so relaxing. I'm having a tough time getting back into a work mindset today but hoping to adjust by tomorrow.

The main reason we went to the OBX was for a friends wedding. The wedding was beautiful and we were able to dodge the rain droplets just enough to get the ceremony in. Congratulations again Gretchen and Matt...best wishes for a wonderful marriage. We decided to make this a vacation so we stayed for a full week. Another couple went along with us (they were invited to the wedding also) and split the cost of renting a house. The house was awesome...so cute and the decor was just my speed; modern! I'm not a fan of that beachy look with seashells and lighthouses so when I saw the pictures of this house on the internet, I had to rent it! I'm so glad we did...the owners of this house know how to make you feel at home. Here is what we did all week...

Saturday: Arrive in the OBX at 6:30pm!!!!!!!!!!!! The most frustrating drive of my entire life...traffic was INSANE! Erik and I both said that we could not handle that drive again. Unpack and go out to grab some dinner at "Owen's Restaurant"! I had shrimp and it was very yummy. We also made a trip to the Food Lion for food at the house.

Sunday: Slept in, take a drive to check out the town, grab lunch at the brewery and wedding at 6:30pm followed by reception at the Mallard's Marsh.

Monday: Slept in again, went to Aquarium in Manteo, lunch/shopping in downtown Manteo (lunch at "Poor Richards Sandwich Shop") and dinner at "Dirty Dicks" later.

Tuesday: Went to breakfast at "Stack Em High", went to Wright Brothers Museum and dinner at Gretchen and Matt's place (Matt is a chef at a 5 star restaurant in Philly). He made a clam bake for everyone!

Wednesday: This was the rainy day of the trip so we decided to just drive around and shop. We made dinner at home this evening and watched a movie.

Thursday: Erik and I headed to the beach for a few hours. We both are not big beach people but had to make an appearance just once. We only stayed for a couple hours. Came back, had some leftover food from dinner the night before, played a round of mini golf, went to "Tale of the Whale" for dinner and tried another place for mini golf afterwards.

Friday: Slept in, went to 2 mini golf courses and dinner at "Applebees" (yes I know nothing special but the couple we were with really wanted to go here). After dinner we packed our things and relaxed watching Olympics until bed.

Saturday: Up at 5am to leave and beat the traffic! On the road by 5:30am. Arrived to Camp Hill at 12:00pm, picked up Del and headed home to unpack. Our vacation is now OVER! : (

We watched a lot of the Olympics when we were at the house...very exciting! Yay for Phelps! Below are some pictures I took while we were there. Enjoy!

A must take pic...LOL!

Marina in Manteo

Wright Brothers Monument

Me being goofy with the statues at the Wright Brothers Museum.

Beautiful sunset!