That's a BFN Folks...

So my cramps are very intense this morning, my temperature is continuing to drop and I'm getting BFNs on the HPTs. AHHHHHH...the dreaded AF should be here by tomorrow! I've been so extremely depressed about my job and I mean EXTREMELY depressed that this BFN just tops off my week! I think I'm going to take some time to myself for awhile so you may not see me around online much. I seriously need to find myself or something. I need to get inspired or just snap out of this terrible funk that I am in.

Let's Try This Again...

Ok, so Erik and I are officially TTC again. Honestly...I'm not really looking forward to all this again. I mean I definitely want to be pregnant but all the emotions that go along with TTC I don't want to deal with it. I am so impatient and I can't stand this waiting game. I'm in the dreaded 2ww right now and I already POAS this morning when I know that its too early. AHHH...I hate that I torture myself. Why can't we know right away instead of waiting 2 weeks? I am analizing every symptom wondering if its pregnant related, avoiding certain foods (just in case), and the lack of concentration at work is making the days go by even slower. This drives me insane. I keep thinking to myself that I would be 21 weeks this week and would know if I was having a boy or girl. Ugh, why am I dwelling on the past? I really need to move past this and look forward to the future baby we will have...soon, but its so hard! Everyone around me is either finding out they are pregnant or about ready to give birth. I'm starting to get baby shower invitations and all I can think about is wishing that I was having one soon. Anyway, I just wanted to vent a little...I feel a little better, thanks! It doesn't help that I have long irregular cycles either.

Back to Work....

After a much needed vacation for Erik and I, we are back to real life now! Booooo! We had an awesome time in the OBX last week, it was so relaxing. I'm having a tough time getting back into a work mindset today but hoping to adjust by tomorrow.

The main reason we went to the OBX was for a friends wedding. The wedding was beautiful and we were able to dodge the rain droplets just enough to get the ceremony in. Congratulations again Gretchen and Matt...best wishes for a wonderful marriage. We decided to make this a vacation so we stayed for a full week. Another couple went along with us (they were invited to the wedding also) and split the cost of renting a house. The house was awesome...so cute and the decor was just my speed; modern! I'm not a fan of that beachy look with seashells and lighthouses so when I saw the pictures of this house on the internet, I had to rent it! I'm so glad we did...the owners of this house know how to make you feel at home. Here is what we did all week...

Saturday: Arrive in the OBX at 6:30pm!!!!!!!!!!!! The most frustrating drive of my entire life...traffic was INSANE! Erik and I both said that we could not handle that drive again. Unpack and go out to grab some dinner at "Owen's Restaurant"! I had shrimp and it was very yummy. We also made a trip to the Food Lion for food at the house.

Sunday: Slept in, take a drive to check out the town, grab lunch at the brewery and wedding at 6:30pm followed by reception at the Mallard's Marsh.

Monday: Slept in again, went to Aquarium in Manteo, lunch/shopping in downtown Manteo (lunch at "Poor Richards Sandwich Shop") and dinner at "Dirty Dicks" later.

Tuesday: Went to breakfast at "Stack Em High", went to Wright Brothers Museum and dinner at Gretchen and Matt's place (Matt is a chef at a 5 star restaurant in Philly). He made a clam bake for everyone!

Wednesday: This was the rainy day of the trip so we decided to just drive around and shop. We made dinner at home this evening and watched a movie.

Thursday: Erik and I headed to the beach for a few hours. We both are not big beach people but had to make an appearance just once. We only stayed for a couple hours. Came back, had some leftover food from dinner the night before, played a round of mini golf, went to "Tale of the Whale" for dinner and tried another place for mini golf afterwards.

Friday: Slept in, went to 2 mini golf courses and dinner at "Applebees" (yes I know nothing special but the couple we were with really wanted to go here). After dinner we packed our things and relaxed watching Olympics until bed.

Saturday: Up at 5am to leave and beat the traffic! On the road by 5:30am. Arrived to Camp Hill at 12:00pm, picked up Del and headed home to unpack. Our vacation is now OVER! : (

We watched a lot of the Olympics when we were at the house...very exciting! Yay for Phelps! Below are some pictures I took while we were there. Enjoy!

A must take pic...LOL!

Marina in Manteo

Wright Brothers Monument

Me being goofy with the statues at the Wright Brothers Museum.

Beautiful sunset!

I Am The Next American Idol!

I think I found my hidden talent...singing/dancing! The new American Idol game for the Wii is my new favorite!! It is loads of fun and even Simon told me that I have a perfect voice. Who knew?!?! LOL! This game is next on my list to get for the Wii. Now Guitar Hero is another story...I really stink!

The "Black Velvet" song (along with many others) will never be the same again.